Saturday, February 12, 2011

Missing all the things

I used to enjoy doing. I took for granted all that I was able to do and accomplish in a day.  I took for granted that I have a blessed life and gave too much attention to the negative things that surrounded me. Now, I'm dependend on my friends and family to get me through this stage of my life.

On my last post, I mentioned that I had vertigo.  Well, after seeing 3 specialist it was discovered that I infact don't have vertigo but left nerve paralysis or 6th nerve palsy.  It's a nerve condition that doesn't allow my left eye to shift to the left and causes double vision when I'm looking straight.  In the morning the eye is relaxed so it's easier for me to function properly but my mid day the eye is weak, my head pounds and my shoulders are tensed.  It's all related because I'm forcing my eyes to function how they always have.  Unfortunately by the time I get home I'm mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted. 

I'm not driving so my SIL and brother are taking turns taking D to school and me to work and bringing us home at the end of the day. I've never felt so blessed that I get to work with my family every single day.  They are definitely helping me to get through this.

Thank God for my hubby... He's been a trooper holding fort at home. He's been cooking, cleaning, helping D with homework so I can just rest.  He's my rock and I'm so grateful for him. I LOVE HIM to pieces...

My friends, what can I possibly say about the wonderful women and men  in my life. Thank you for all the calls, emails, text and the wonderful words of encouragement you give me. I love you all very much and I'm so grateful to call you my friends.

We still don't know how I got this because all my results have been negavtive (Thank Goodness).  All have been confident in saying this is temporary but it's been one month and I show no improvement.  I've been surfing the internet and getting feedback from some of our Dr clients and we (my brother and I) that have medical degrees from the University of  researching the internet and watching Dr. Oz on t.v. think I may have signs of Multiple Sclerosis.  I've read it extensively and I know I've had some of the symtoms. Not always, not consistently but I have had them. 

So Monday morning, I'm making some calls and getting the ball rolling on getting more test done.  I can't leave this alone. I need to COMMIT to getting my health better for me.  I want to continue running, exercising and enjoying my life again. It's a battle I wasn't prepared for but it's here, it's real and I'm ready to take on the challenge. 

Thanks for staying and reading this huge post. I needed to get this off my chest and on to paper. Thank you all again for your concerns and prayers. My pitty party ends today and today I take control of my life again.  I definitely can't drive yet but I can definitely do everything else in my life. I always tell me son with respect to school "Slow and Steady wins the race".  Today I'm taking my own advice and putting it to use.

Have a great weekend and I'll keep you updated...



Maritza said...

You are in my prayers. I pray for answers and a speedy recovery. I'm sending you a giant bear hug.

Nancy W said...

Awe Ady! So sorry you are going through this but glad younger blessed with great support from your family! Will keep you in my prayers!

Vanessa, Florida, USA said...

I love you my BFF!!!! And I know you will be just fine. It may take a little longer than you hoped but you will be back to yourself again. You are strong and healthy and all the docs say this is temporary. I'm praying for you every day :) Keep your faith and we'll get through this. xoxo

Damaris said...

I have you in my prayers. This I are blessed because YOU are a blessing to so many of us. Whatever you can count on us.

jo said...

Ady, you're definitely in my thoughts and prayers. I wish there was something I could do for you while I'm 3000 miles away. Love you girlie!


Sharon said...

I hope you can soon post that you are all healed, and all that's bothering is gone. Praying so things get better quickly. Take care of yourself! I'm just catching up with blogs today. it has been a long while!