So, I did a layout on how I'm feeling today. This has been a very difficult week for me. School started on Monday and I had so many expectations for D and I really thought he had outgrown some of his bad school habits. This summer at camp was wonderful and I had a complain free summer.
I had three conferences this week. Yes count them 3! and we have only had five days of school. Needless to say that he has an amazing teacher that I pray will break him down and teach him that she is the boss in school.
I have done everything I possibly know how to get through to him but nothing has worked. Today I broke down and all I've done is cry... What will next week bring??? I'm scared, hopeful and anxious. This is how I feel today....
Journaling reads: D'Angelo, at times I feel as if I'm failing you because I cannot make you understand the importance of behaving in school and following directions. It hurts me to scream and punish you but at times thats all I have because reasoning and explaining just does not sink in. I pray for patience so that I can better guide you, to show you the potential you have to do amazing things in your life. All I've ever wanted was to be a good mother and I know that deep down inside that I'm a great mom and I also know that you are an amazing son. We need to take a step back and get to our happy place again. I love you with all my heart and soul and I know we can get through this together...
TFL... and have a great weekend...
1 comment:
You are an amazing Mom so don't ever doubt yourself. I know that D will learn to behave himself better soon and you will find that happy place again. Your LO and the journaling are very personal and heartfelt. Love ya, girlie!
Post a Comment